adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

semalam baru aku berjaya abiskan tgk one in the million
tp tu pun, aku tgk part tomok ja
haish, tersuka lak kat dia skang bila tgk OIAM neh!
oops!

dulu..
aku mmg benci sgt2..
dgr suara pon xlalu dah, dgn sengau2 tu
tmbah nak tgk muka..
bajet dia hot dulu dgn rambut M dia tu

tp dulu ramai kot kawan2 aku gilakan tomok
eeei..xle trima aku!
smpai ada newboyz buat konsert kat alor star, ada yg pengsan
apekah????

tp skang..
klu ada org nak pengsan tgk tomok..aku rs ok kot..
sengau2 dah ilang
suara dan makin mantap!
siyes!!
(#_@)

itula...
benci..
pepatah ada kata, jangan terlalu membenci..
lama2 boleh suka atau jatuh cinta
aku rasa pepatah ni ada betulnya..

tp tajuk xada kena mengena dengan tomok k
klu untuk tomok, kena nyanyi cmni..
"adakah perasaan benci itu sebenarnya akan suka..."

wink (^_*)

siapa lagi x tgk tomok?
sila ke sini~

i am sorry...

dear...

i know u r lonely
i know u r feeling helpless
i know u hurt so much since last 2 weeks
i know it..

i know it very well even u r not visibly showing that to me
it hurts me seeing u like this
it hurts me more when u fell down yesterday during ur tournament
it broke my heart knowing u were bleeding.. even it is not serious..it still hurt me..

when u called me, its not that i dont want to talk to u
i know u need someone by ur side
i know u really need someone to accompany u
i know u wish someone will always be with u to push away ur sadness n ur stress

n i know that 'someone' is me...

but i'm sorry...
I AM SO SORRY...
i really have a lot of works
i stuck to do my reports
i have test
i have reports to be finished
1 major project
i really dont have much time for this 'last-minute' work again
*sigh*

that's why i cannot talk to you for long
that's why i cannot often come to you

but i wish i could..
i owe u so much
u r the closest person to me
u fulfilled almost everything that i wanted

i really want to accompany u..
but please understand me a bit
i may not telling u my situation cz i dont want to burden u some more
but i jz really need u to understand me
jz 2 months..then i'll be with u..insyaAllah..

please dont think that i'm not there for u
i am always by ur side
but this time, ouh no2..this week.. i really need this week..
ok?
i'm sorry for hurting u..
i didnt mean it..
it hurts me when u ended our conversation jz like that
i really want to cry, but it's ok if u r alright..
i jz need the old u.. the most cheerful person i ever know..

dear,
i really LOVE u...
please push away..far away..ur bad feeling..ur stress..ur unwanted feeling..
please dear please..
I am always here for u...

kenangan ku~ #1

salam..

its been more than half of a month i didnt show myself up here
its all because of report..report n report lg!!!
n some presentation and test as well

but now, a lil relief i guess i have
a lil ok..only a little!!

a long weekend..with not-so-much people around.. it reminds me my good-old-days in utp

ms tau dpt utp.. i was shocked!! really2 shocked!!
ms tu nak gi bayar yuran masuk usm dah..
klu dah bayar, mesti xdtg dah utp ni..

tp rencana Allah tu sgt menarik..
surat tawaran dr utp membuatkan aku bingung memilih USM or UTP..
USM aku ditawarkan dengan Forensic..
memang itu cita2 aku dr dulu..sbg doctor..xkisah doctor apa pon..
tp pemilihan forensic aku buat disebabkan CSI..
ouh, pengaruh TV lg.. =p

setelah di-pk2.. di tanya2 pendapat suma2, akhirnya aku membuat keputusan utk ke utp
tp berat sekali kaki ini.. sebab ayah mmg meninginkanku menjadi seorang doctor
since xda lg doctor in our family..

ms 1st day kat utp..
bergerak ja kereta family keluar dari utp, permataku mengalir laju
itulah kali pertama air mata ni menyembah bumi di utp
mcm2 perasaan ada..

dengan tidak bertemankan sorang pon org yg dikenali di sini..aku tetap mencuba menabahkan diri..
tp thanx god, aku dikurniakan seorang rumet yang aku xpnah tukar smpai dah final year ni..
cmne ea knal?
biarlah rahsia ea rumet? =p
tp yang pasti, aku rs sebab keberanian n keramahan aku menegur rumet yang muka ala2 muallaf ni.. =p
n blok kami ms 1st sem dlu ialah v2A..

masa mula2 masuk utp..aku rs biasa ja..
nak rasa kagum tu, ada la sket..dah nama petronas kan..
tp masa MAS aka orientation week, aku amat lah terkejut ble ms nk mkn, lalat amatlah byk
n bertambah terkejut ble kat main hall pon ada..apakah?
n aku pon wt la assumption tronoh agak byk lalat..huhu

n ms MAS gak aku rs aku tmbah kawan kt cni..
tmbh lg banyak bila join kawad utk merdeka parade..
tu kenangan yg x akan aku lupa ms 1st year kt cni..

join kawad tu mmg sgt x merugikan.
walaupon petang2 terpaksa abiskan masa di parking depan main hall, tp kami akan disajikan makanan yang best2 lepas berkawad

especially masa team building..
held in Teluk Dalam, Pangkor..
it was my 1st time there n it was fully sponsored by UTP!!
lucky us!
makanannya, xyah ckp la..sgt sedap..
seafood memanjang..hehe

sesampai di Pulau Pangkor

sesampai di Teluk Dalam Resort

ber-BBQ di teluk dalam

n ke-best-an bertambah bila hari kawad menjelang
hari ke KL..2 bas bergerak..
mula2 kami terpaksa menetap di hostel ukm..
sebab semua rehearsal dak U akan dibuat kat ukm..
suma2 dr U lain pon menetap kat ctu
hostel tu x seberapa la bestnya
bertmbh xbest bila tiba2 xda air.. maybe nasib kami kurang baik..huhu
tp kt ctu kami dpt mcm2.. set sweater.. sport shoes.. kasut kawad..
mmg terasa untung yang amat la..

ha disebabkan hostel tu shot air..so kami dikhabarkan untuk berpindah tmpt tinggal..
hanya budak2 utp yang diarahkan begitu.. U lain stay kt ukm..
nak tau kat mana kami dipindahkn?

ha ni part terbaik ms kawad
kami semua dipindahkan ke hostel MSN (majlis sukan negara), bukit jalil
hostel ni sgt best ok!!!
bilik econ..
1 bilik 6 orang.. semua single bed..

waa~ teharu gle ms tu.. thanx to UTP!!
di MSN

bersama rumet2 kat MSN

n kt ctu kami agak bebas bergerak..
kalau xda latihan n rehearsal, kami bebas bergerak ke mana2 pon..
so kami pon amek kesempatan la gi main bowling n karok kat indah parade..
jalan2 d ctu..
aku pon sempat kua ngn kakak2 ku jua..hihi

owh, xlupa juga, kami telah dibawa merentasi jambatan KLCC
1st tym gak..best woo!
agak excited sbb xsgka dpt keistimewaan smpai cmtu skali.. =D

di KLCC bridge

smpai ke hari kawad, kami still di layan sebaiknya..
n dah kenal n agak rapat dgn beberapa pak gad yang train kami kawad
so senang nak lepas dr kena saman.. =p
tp still gak kna saman..dr pakcik lain..haish..

masa rehearsal..dlm keta kebal

masa berkawad~

dalam perjalanan pulang..
sume dah burn.. =p

owh ni semua kenangan2 1st sem..
kenangan2 ms still sweet 18.. =p

p/s: sungguh muda muka2 itu suma.. =p