awkward feeling

Salam

rite now I have an awkward feeling deep inside my heart..

I'm happy, but at d same time I feel like d loneliness will linger around me soon

I know I have to let this thing go, its for her happiness...

I am happy for her, but sometime I do feel that she will leave me like the others..

waaaa~ 

I shouldn't have this feeling.. but I can't even hide it...

for the past 4-5 months, I did feel this way..

less pillow talk...

less shopping.. 

less wayang...

everything that I ever spent with her become less..

even lesser after this I think...

but whatever it is, I am super happy for you

hope this happiness will be with u for the rest of your life

can't wait for your BIG DAY, dear!!!

=)

bestnya ada anak kan

Salam...

best kan ada baby ni...

siapa2 yang dah ada anak tu mesti agree kan?

lain la yg dlm news hari2 orang buang anak tu..nauzubillah..

actually, this week aku diamanahkan untuk jaga baby my sis.. Airil Ziqry tu..
n also abg2 si airil ni..
since my sis is on a trip dengan husband dia  for 6 days..

now I realized that bukan senang nak jaga anak..
terutamanya baby la..

bila melawak, asyik gelak ja

dia ni kira budak baik gak la..jarang sgt bgn malam

dengan terjaga tgh malam... tgh sakit2 dia.. nak salin pampers..
mencabar gak tu... bila tgh malam mmg lg mencabar la..huhu

*cmna la mak ayah jaga aku kecik2 dlu..huhu*

pastu wat muka kesian suh org angkat dia

tp sesusah mana pon jaga baby ni, once kita dpt tgk dia senyum, dia gelak, knpem ilang rasa susah tu
hilang semua stress bila balik dr keja...
rs x sabar nk tgk baby tu pon ada.. *wink2* ;-)

bila dh penat, dia pon tdo..tp nk gak pegang jari org..

:: i wish i'll have my own soon.. :-p ::

done with 1st sem!

salam...

alhamdulillah tamat sudah exam utk 1st semester..

doakan saya berjaya dgn cemerlang!!!! =D

tapi siyes papers utk master ni were totally different..

total paper: 4

dua paper yg pertama agak mengerikan sbb banyak kna hafal n paper yg berturut..

n one of d paper, cukup2 je markahnya...i mean 60 mark was allocated since carry mark is 40..

sungguh menyenangkan diri lecturer ku itu...

3rd paper lg horror... 10 soklan..jawab suma within 3 hours..

tahniah tangan dan jemariku berjaya menggoreng secukup garam & belacan..huh~

org ckp save d best for d last..

hah yg last ni mmg plg BEST!!!

wat aku DOWN nk mampos!!!!!!

xyah study pon xpa paper last ni..sume application je..

so to those yg kje, sile la amek paper ni...utk org xde pengalaman, mmg goreng smpai hangus kot..huh~

but at least suma dah lepas... jz pray to excel with flying colors~

ha, 1 more thing about exam di UM....

masuk je exam and it was FREE SEATING!!!

xyah susah2 cari number meja....i loiiiiike!!!

n beg pon le bwk masuk...jz letak depan2 je...

trully different kan ngn kt UTP..hihihi

k done cte psl exam n study..

pasni masa utk berpoya2...

ayuh berguling-guling macam tenggiling!!!!!

weekend is back in my life!!!!

i'll be having it for 2 monthS!!!

p/s: dh bley p psr tani...dh bley tgk melodi

n d most important is bley TDOQ sepuas ati di ujung mggu!!!!

flowers n ribbons

salam...

Attention to all that wish to get married

or...

getting married in a short term...

or

to those who are looking for gifts to be given in any occasion....

do visit....

http://flowersandribbons.blogspot.com/

it is a good platform for you to get any idea of giving out door gift on ur BIG DAY!!!

they are awesome gifts available n prices are truthfully reasonable!!!!

i loiiiiiike it~

Exam menjelang

salam...

esok bermulalah perjalanan peperiksaan buat kali pertama di alam Masters ni...

aku akui yang pembelajaran kini amat berbeza dari undergrad dulu..

tp aku harus tabah...kuatkan semangat!!!!

4 papers harus ku tempuh...

semoga Allah permudahkan semuanya untukku...

"roobi yassir wala tu'assir... robbi tammim bil khoir.."

keja + study

i just discovered that...

working + studying = TIRED

especially during exam

balik keja konon nk study...

ni la outcome nya bila dah turn on computer...

buku terCover oleh pencil case + facebooking + baca blog!

yeay, saya belom setadi...

jap2, check jadual exam dlu...ayuh~

Saturday/ 24.04.2010

Sustainable Process Engineering: 2 pm – 5 pm

Sunday/ 25.04.2010

Environmental Management Systems:

10 am – 1 pm

Sunday/ 02.05.2010

Hazardous Waste Control: 2 pm – 5 pm

Sunday/ 09.05.2010

Hazard Identification and Evaluation: 2 pm – 5 pm

wah~ saya sangat suka dengan jadual 1st week!!!

dengan keja yang sangat banyak, saya pasti sempat cover semuanya dalam seminggu!

saya pasti dapat menghafal nota2 setebal 2 inchi utk setiap subjek ini!

tahniah z!

p/s: tula, ms xde kje dlu hang xmo study tol2...

tp klu study pon bukan bley ingt suma..

mmg dh lumrah kna study last minit br le ingt..huhu

bercerita tentang kawen

today i went out for lunch

with another RA.. n another 2 staffs..1st tym la kua ngn derang ni..

time makan ni la nk bercerita kan since aku pon xsempat nk borak2 sejak duk cni

n ms tu aku dpt tau yg salah sorg staff yg lunch sama tu kawen dr umo 23

means that umo aku tahun ni! so i was like...

"OMG!! bestnye kawen awal" n dia pon tersenyum sipu malu + sukeee~

suddenly dia tanya aku balik.." bila nk kawen zeti?"

n aku dengan slumbernya jawab... "2 tahun lagi insyaAllah.."

n 10 saat kemudian br aku sedar dgn apa yg aku jawab..

'gilakah aku..calon pon xde..yakin je nk kawen kan..'

*sigh*

p/s: mak ayah ja la tlg carikan utk adik ea..

gatal la lu z! =p

abeska blaja dlu..hihi

Gardening @ Seoul~

i just want to thannnnnnnksssssss these fellows...

for a wonderful dinner

for a lot of photo shoots

for pushing my stress away

and

for being such great FRIENDS!!!!

p/s: nnt kita wat cmni lagi kayh kawan2~

notakaki:

makan byk daging..balik tdo dlm kepanasan..huhuhu

i just had enuf II

You are fine

You are kind

You are caring

You are understanding

You are just good enough to love me

But I'm not that good enough to be loved

I'll never hope for something that I can never reach and get it

Coz sometime, I know I'll get hurt

But most of the time, I never want you to be hurt

Everything is hidden

The uncertainties make me worry

Just pray for the best

=)

i just had enuf

You...

I just had enough with u..

can I just back off now...

but how could I do that..

I don't even have the strength...

I know we've been through a lot for quite some times..

but its not the measurement for the next happiness

I don't like to be a judger...

but everything still come across as I get to know you more...

the way you act.. the way you talk...

and the extreme hot new from others...

could you change that???

in any way.. I wish you could.....

I am really had enough with you...

seriously...........